So very true flubucket. We absolutely must "get back up". It's definitely better than the options or alternatives and thus, the best and only choice.

I can relate to you, OP, since I'm experiencing some very faint case of panic attacks. I don't know if it is really panic attacks, or just hyperanxiety, but from what I experienced and from what you told us here, I know I have it easy comparing to you, but then I can imagine how painful and crippling to feel much worse than what i feel...

I went to the hospital clinic yesterday ... First time driving and going to town since I have been home. I took a pill before going in and for the most part everything was fine ... Even with the pill; there were times I started feeling a little antsy or whatever but seemed like my mind would just auto-focus on something else and the feelings would go away. Pretty Good ....
The dr. there gave me a refill on the clonazepam and that was a relief to know my gun was loaded (so to speak) ... PLUS all my vitals were fine ... so, again ; my heart may be needing help BUT it isn't what is causing the problems right now ... directly anyways ...
Went to the Bank and did the grocery shopping ... On the way home I stopped by one of my other brother's houses to visit a little before going home. Nice.... That my crutch held me up :)
Dr. also gave me # to call for South Lane Mental Health so I can start to figure out what is being repressed and building up to these attacks all of a sudden ..... Also made an appointment with the Heart doctor And my Primary Care dr. (for when she returns from Maternity Leave) ...Nice Productive day ...
Bought a Blood Pressure Monitor so I can keep an eye on THAT situation and had a LONG CHAT last night with a *new* Facebook friend who has a PAGE set up about PaceMakers .... Thinking she actually relieved a bit of apprehension regarding THAT *apparent* need and thinking a bit more favorably about it ...
I DID take the pill 12 hours later when I took my other meds and NO Anxiety all night ...

I am confident that THIS Crippling matter will be resolved relatively quickly once I start (ahem) therapy ... no stigma there though ... We all need help and SOMEONE to talk to once in awhile ...

Benefit of the Clonzepam is that it is also anti spasm/tremor so it appears to be helping my Knee, hip and ulnar nerve pain ...

All in All ... Real nice day ...

Going into town again on Friday ... and not going to rush through it ... IT will be a Good day too ...

This problem won't last long !!! Then I can get a handle on other things needing my attention.

I am Confident

OH ... (didn't write it down but) Actually adlibbed some words to what my fingers decided to play on my double keyboards when I played later that night .... :) All in all Real nice day.

THANKS EVERYONE
and everyone suffering with heavy anxiety and Panic Attacks ... There IS HOPE and they WILL go away ...
Just going to take some Time and effort but feeling ... (in my case anyways) it will all be fine ...
And I (for one) will be Stronger because of going through this ... If for no other reason than I can now Fully relate more to the feelings and needs and fears of other people.

THANKS for Helping :)

PEACE

Such great news. Thanks for the update. You've worked soooo hard at dealing with and coping with these ailments. I'm wearing a big smile cause you definitely are making progress. There will be good days and not-so-good days, but each day is a step forward and another beginning. Good for you. Pat yourself on the back, you deserve it.

Great news!! I'm proud of you. Keep it up, you are a walking success story to inspire others.

I am so happy right now, thank you!!!